Wow I haven't posted anything in a while, I have so much to say. I've probably lost some readers along the way, not that there was many anyways. Hopefully you haven't given up completely on my blog...
Firstly HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! I know I'm a little late but better late then never. So far 2007 has been amazing. I always love the new year, a new fresh start.
KVHS JV girl's basketball took home the provincial title last weekend. I don't play on the team but I was the manager, and my little sister was the star of the team this season, scoring 24 points in the final game against BMHS!!! congrats sis!!!! And yes I did say I was the manager of the team, some of you are wondering why I took the managing seat this year rather then playing on varsity.... Sometimes I ask myself the same question. But the answer is I did not make the team.... But it was an unfair cut on behalf of the coaches, I'm not being cocky but I did deserve to make the team because I have the talent and I'm not going to sell myself short because of one coach's opinion. Anyways all I can do is improve myself and learn form the amazing season I had with the JV girls.
tomorrow is valentines day, and I've never really been a fan of the day. But this year is the first year I will not be single so maybe it could be a happy day :)
wish you all a very happy valentines day!!!
Updates
wow I haven't posted anything for a while.
So life has been crazy! At this point my outlook on life is changing rapidly. I want to live each day to the fullest and have fun along the way. I'm letting go of things the held me back for so long and I'm finally leading myself, I'm choosing my own path and I find it to be a huge relief. Sometimes you have to venture off on you own to find out where your supposed to end up. I don't know where I'm headed and really I don't care. I'm living each day as it comes and taking big leaps instead of small careful steps. Maybe I might fall on my butt, but The memories and experiences I collect will be my pillow to fall on.
School has been really interesting lately... Surprise there. But my grades are higher then ever and I seem to be more concentration. I seemed to have lost concentration for a while because of my concussion last year, but finally things seem to be looking up.
My best friend moved away last year and its been hard finding someone I can relate to and talk with. I miss her so much and i still talk with her alot but I miss having her here.But with them(my freinds here) It's always fun times so no complaints.
So I guess these are the updates in my life... I have a major math and history test tomorrow so I really should be studying. But please leave a comment
<3 love you all
nothing new
Nothing new really going on. Life just passing by... its been fun though.
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MY HAIR IS SO SHORT!!!!! I can't believe my hair is gone!!!!! I'm having a mini break down here!!!!! So I walked into the hairdressers, I explained that I wanted a TRIM!!! And half a hour latter my hair is above my shoulders..... a total of 6 inches gone!!!!!!!! So yeah I'm feeling pretty ugly at the moment. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
I know I've been just complaining in my blogs lately but this is how I've been feeling. I wish so much, that I could find a way out of this pit I'm so deeply burried in. I wish I was strong enough to find the light. But the fact is, I am not strong enough. I have lost the only thing that kept me going, my faith. Things have been really bad lately. theres been so much fighing in my home. Schools been draging on, and my old focus is gone. I can't stop blamming myself for this shadow of a life i'm living. There seems to be no way out. People see me but they don't know me. everyone seems so far away latley. How do I get back to them? It's weird, I was reading other blogs by my christain friends and I felt so guilty. So This blog started with the words..."God is Good!!!" but I knew i was kidding myself.... I don't even know who God is anymore. I wish I knew the secret to holding on to the faith I once had. None of my friends understand the way I feel... I can't discuss this with them, they think its too deep and it freaks them out. But If i don't have the support of my Friends who do I have to count on. Life has been so difficult! Why can't I just be happy for like one day! But I have fear and regret instead! Seeing peoples love for the Lord makes me want it, but I just can't seem to get back up. I've fallin and I can't get back up. I want to be happy again.
Fridays
Today was a good day... fridays are always good. So stress free and futur weekend plans to be thought of....today was a good day. I hope the chain continues tommorrow
Show Me The Way...
I'm on a path. But where is my path leading me? Is it in the right direction. I feel so lost and so low. My faith is nowheres to be seen. God is calling out to me, I can hear him. But after such a long time away from him I can't seem to find the way to his voice, his everlasting love. My feet stray to the path I'm on instead. Their determined to keep me there, away from him.
